All my life I knew I wanted to be a mother. When people asked me what I wanted to be when I grew up, I always replied “a mommy.” My dreams came true in late February when I found out I was pregnant with twins.
From the beginning, I was terrified because I knew there were a lot of risks involving multiple pregnancies. I did everything I could to make sure this pregnancy was being carefully monitored. I was seeing the Dr. every two weeks to monitor their growth and heart rates, read every novel possible, ate healthy etc. Nothing was going to prepare me for the journey that we were going to have to go through.
My sons Ean and Evan were born August 24, 2011 at 8:27 pm via c-section due to early ruptured membranes. While I was being wheeled into the operating room I felt sadness, defeated, almost as if I was being punished. I knew it was too early, I knew they would be small, I knew they might not survive.
As they pulled Evan out he cried and it was the best sound of my life. Ean was not crying when they pulled him out which was terrifying. For the next hour as I sat in recovery I had no idea how my children were.
The transport team wheeled them to my bedside so I could touch their feet, in that moment life hit me. I was a mother, my children were alive, and now I had to be there to help my babies fight for their lives. And that’s what I did.
I was at their bedside daily. Their dad and I did kangaroo care for hours. We made sure to be a part of rounds, we asked all the questions we needed to educate ourselves about their health.
Through many obstacles my little boys fought, and they fought hard! They were able to come home on October 31, 2011. As we walked out the doors of Akron Children’s NICU, we were excited but sad. The NICU was a part of our lives, we became close with the neonatologists, NNPs (neonatal nurse practitioners), social workers, lactation, the Rienberger center staff, and the other families going through the same thing we were.
Thanks to Akron Children’s Hospital and your staff for helping my dreams become a reality. We cannot wait to see you all at the reunion!
Much love, the Fertig/White family.